Walk: JCC, Trader Joe's, Mindful Body
Distance: 3 miles, take yoga class, teach yoga class
Feeling pillar to post today. Earlier - after a class with one of my primary yoga mentors way back when - I was considering taking a 1 week immersion with him and wondering about adding a class or two to my teaching. Now I am re-reading my correspondence with Mill Valley owners who have places to rent. Tomorrow I will go look at one and Thursday I will look at another. So, I'm also batting around thoughts about spending 'quality time' in Marin if I can come up with a way to do so.
Then there are thoughts about going down to L.A. at the end of the month to see a Jeopardy taping (which I'm quite clear I will do), reservation for NYC also at the end of the month (which I will cancel/rebook). There are other things in the air as well. It's funnnn to have many positive choices, but a bit distracting because I'm wondering "Where did all this come from?" Oh well, it's here, and 'living the question' is my way.
Guess that's the thing that nags. I do live the question. It is how I learn. Recently I started the Fromm Institute for Continuing Education, and learned by going to a few classes that it wasn't for me. It took getting close to it, feeling the vibes/visuals/etc. For all I know this is the way of a lot of intuitives. I can know a lot intellectually, but really knowing it is a whole other thing.
Judging from the reaction I often get if people learn I've started, then stopped activities, I'm led to believe my way is not the usual (even somehow 'acceptable') way. On a much, much smaller scale, many/most people finish books once they've started. It apparently doesn't occur to them - or they don't take seriously - that they can stop at any point. Needless to say, I've always just stopped reading any time I lost interest in/respect for/whatever a book. Saying this out loud can actually make some people furious at me. (That I didn't finish a book?!) Weird. Obviously they think I'm weird too. So when I find myself pulled toward living a variety of questions all at once, part of me goes "Ah Oh..."