Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Pause, then Continue.... 2/128

Walk: Fillmore Street, Mindful Body
Distance: 3 miles and teach yoga class

Here's what I think is happening in ciwt's little mind:  the reality of age and death are becoming more real, closer.  There's the goodbye I just said to a friend's dog, Callie of course, my face in the mirror, friends, acquaintances, friends of friends, famous people being comparatively incapacitated/'not themselves.'  For ever and ever this has gone on without a deep sense of me being part of the process.  Ie, with denial.  But denial is definitely lifting of its own accord- in dreams certainly.

CIWT is not going to be a morbid place but seemed appropriate today to at least mention 'all this' - get it out in the open.  Sometimes it is kind of relief to really get it, stop fighting, stop freaking out at the mirror, respecting what is or assimilating it a bit more.

Of course, sometimes not at all.  A lot of the time not - which is just fine with me.


On another note, Prince Harry, who is visiting the States, seems much cooler than I realized.


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