Wednesday, August 17, 2016

Ciwt in the Middle --- Day 5/179

Walk: Sundance Kabuki (Hell or High Water - x 2)
Distance: 2 miles, home yoga




So, turns out Ciwt isn't good with The Middle.  She likes to start things: the creativity, the challenge, the energy and focus that comes with those.  And, though not pleasant and more difficult, she likes finishing and moving on.  Sometimes it takes her a (long) while, but she is a believer in the old 'close one door, another opens' adage.

But then there is The Middle which baffles Ciwt, gets her down, makes her anxious actually. Right now, The Middle is happening with her new little business, her club, Callie and other decisions.  The Middle is probably akin to the 'grey area,' which isn't a comfortable place for Ciwt either.  She likes Yes/Start or No/Finish.  She doesn't trust or particularly grasp "Maybe/Let the Middle play out." Some voice tells her it won't, that Maybe and The Middle will just eat up time and not yield any results.  So Ciwt starts marching in place with kind of a hopeless sense of things - not knowing what to do, just anxiously waiting.

Of course what is at play in The Middle are things like Trust, Control, Patience.  Oh, dear.


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