Walks: Museums, Hood
Distances: 4 miles average
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So it has taken Ciwt quite a while to catch on and kept her away from CIWT in the digesting. First there was some hair loss. But there are products to disguise that. Then came bruises if she even lightly tapped against something. Oh well, it will go away. But one kept following another until her skin was never 100%.
And, after a while, a lot of things weren't. She was able to finally purchase her '100%' home but immediately fell and broke her wrist while moving in. That followed by a series of trips to medical offices for a variety of issues. You get the pattern.
Through all these and many 'less than 100% Me' situations, Ciwt continued her lifelong mindset: "Oh, when this is over, I'll be back to 100%." As things progressed (see above), she'd still think "I can't have this because I still have that." And get on her case because she should be 100%.
Until, finally, finally she has realized, 100% Me doesn't exist. Or, as Gilda Radner said, "There's always something." And it isn't just about health things. She doesn't have 100% energy, direction, purpose, character, temperment, enchantment with her new home, yoga sessions, love of driving or reading The New Yorker or most books these days. She doesn't make CIWT entries every day, the list is nearly endless.
Ciwt is slowly realizing her image of 100% can (and needs to be!) redefined. Basically 100% has always been out of the question. While she's been 100% Ciwt since birth, she's always been a person so, like everybody, never 100%. She looks forward to more enjoyable/realistic times now that she's getting off her illusory 100% Me case.
Now on to preparing two Good Enough art tours in the week ahead....
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