|Open Water Women's 10km at Seaside Momochi Beach Park on July 15, 2023, in Fukuoka, Japan
Swimming confuses Ciwt. She grew up on a lake and did it all the time pretty well, but somehow it always felt foreign and lonely. Even that dip at night before going to bed when the water was black, warmer than the air and the bubbles she made were strangely neon. It relaxed her body but made also her feel alone and aware of her smallness compared with the bigness of the water. In Florida where she went with her family for spring vacation, she was secretly afraid of the ocean, no matter how gorgeous.
So looking at these women thrashing through huge open waters in Japan gives her a chill. Six miles they will go in that formidable water, one by one. Seems isolating, or at least consumately private.
Give Ciwt a surf board or water skis or a dock or board to dive off and she is happy. But the lonely swim is another matter for her. Yet, she would love to have a pool or live again on a lake. Confusing.